CHANGE HAS COME
It has been decided by the higher powers that change shall be implemented.
The fast life is over, and this blog shall now be left to rot in cyberspace.
http://themirrorworld.wordpress.com
Friday, 3 July 2009
Wednesday, 1 July 2009
Time for Change?
I'm contemplating over whether I should create another blog.
Reason is because I want to resort out my stuff and reorganise them in a more orderly manner. Wordpress?
Sunday, 28 June 2009
Imagine Life Without Colour
Week 25: Imagine Life Without Colour
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Exam week is drawing near. These have been adding colour to my life of mere words and lines.
Of course, I must not forget friends who studied with me! =)
Thursday, 25 June 2009
This Love Never Ends
This Love Never Ends
- Takeda Kouhei
キミの愛を得るためなら
戦士にもなれるさ If you need me
「太陽に憧れて 高く高く飛んだ翼
その熱に溶かされて 深い海へと墜ちて行く」
そんな物語さえ オレの心には響かない
信じるのは 運命の愛だけ
舞い上がれ 青空焦がし
真っ赤に染めるほど
この愛の価値を見せつけよう
For you 見つめ合えば
This love never ends 誰も誰かの
自由は奪えない
限界を決めるのもオレなら
For you 無限と言い切ろう
「天にも届く位 積み上げられた塔もまた
神の怒りに触れて 脆くも地に崩れ落ちた」
教えなんていらない 普通の常識じゃ通じない
キミと創る 伝説を残そう
舞い上がれ 青空越えて
まだ見ぬ宇宙（そら）の果て
輝きだけを見せてあげよう
For you 指に星を
This love never ends 聞く耳持たず
すべてを突破する
不可能なんてオレにないこと
For you キミだけのために強くなるのさ
止めどなく溢れ出す
比類無きこの自信で
キミがいる素晴らしい
世界 守ることを誓う
舞い上がれ 青空焦がし
真っ赤に染めるほど
この愛の価値を見せつけよう
For you 見つめ合えば無敵
So this love will never end, never end
心に決めたから
この愛守るためのポテンシャル
For you 無限だと言い切ろう
I swear…proud of my love, proud of my life
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If it's to win your love,
Then I'll be a soldier, if you need me
"Attracted by the sun, flying up, high up on wings
The heat melts them, and he falls into the deep sea"
Such stories don't ring with my heart
Cause I only believe in fated love
Rise up! The blue sky
Is scorched till it's deep red
I'll show you the value of this love
For you, if our gazes can connect...
This love never ends, nobody
No one's freedom can be stolen
If I decide on my limit
For you, I say there's no limit
"A tower was also built so that it could reach the heavens
God unleashed his anger and it crumbled to the ground"
I don't need your teachings; "Common sense" doesn't work on me
Let's leave behind legends that I'll create with you
Rise up! Pass the blue skies
To the yet unseen ends
I will show you nothing that doesn't shine
For you, a star on your finger
This love never ends, I will hear nothing
I will break through everything
There is nothing impossible for me
For you and you alone I will become strong
I am always overflowing
With this unparalleled confidence
I swear to protect
The wonderful world you live in
Rise up! The blue sky
Is scorched till it's deep red
I'll show you the value of this love
For you, I become invincible if our gazes connect
So this love will never end, never end
For I have sworn it on my heart
My potential for protecing this love
For you... is infinite
I swear…proud of my love, proud of my life
Saturday, 20 June 2009
Monday, 15 June 2009
Happy Day, Many Thanks
Really tired, but I had fun. Kudos to Sonia and Xiuqing. Haven't had this much fun in a while. And yes I feel happy, even though my face doesn't really show it. REALLY! I'm just tired. Night at the Museum 2 was funny, and so was Rush Hour 2 and 3 XD
I really appreciate the gifts as well. I shall find some way to place Spidey-s on my cupboard. I have to find a place for the camera/coin box as well. And the card and the Mr Happy book. Oh yes, and Sarah as well. Your notebook, very unique. I have to find stuff that's worthy of recording in the notebook. =)
Again, thanks to the Infocomm Exco for the cake, and to friends who wished me via sms/facebook/personally etc etc...
Come to think of it, I am real lucky to have my birthday celebrated... TWICE! Yes Xiu, I'm real lucky...
As you can see from this extremely short post, my brain is really fried... That's how tired I am... But thanks again Sonia and Xiu!
I really appreciate the gifts as well. I shall find some way to place Spidey-s on my cupboard. I have to find a place for the camera/coin box as well. And the card and the Mr Happy book. Oh yes, and Sarah as well. Your notebook, very unique. I have to find stuff that's worthy of recording in the notebook. =)
Again, thanks to the Infocomm Exco for the cake, and to friends who wished me via sms/facebook/personally etc etc...
Come to think of it, I am real lucky to have my birthday celebrated... TWICE! Yes Xiu, I'm real lucky...
As you can see from this extremely short post, my brain is really fried... That's how tired I am... But thanks again Sonia and Xiu!
Saturday, 13 June 2009
Bliss
Week 23: Bliss
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Originally, I wanted to have a more 'sad' or emo-ish picture for this week, something to mark the end of my journey in Infocomm. I even had a title and a concept all planned out, but alas things were not meant to be (don't ask me why, I'll blow my top).
Loads of happy stuff occurred this week, and Infocomm Camp rocked. It's sad to step down, but at least my last day at camp came as quite a surprise.
At 12 midnight on 12th June (that's my birthday for those who don't know), the Photog/AV exco wished me Happy Birthday, alongside with the Mr Lau-s, and some smses from church members. I saw that coming, but at 1.30am when I went to AV Room for post-hustings discussion, there was a cake! Really didn't see that coming.
To the outgoing Photog exco, I guess we all had fun in our term. It was both fun and tiring to work with you guys (or should I say girls ><). We had our happy times, and loads of emo times for me. To the outgoing AV exco, it was fun knowing and working with you guys even for the short 6 months. Lastly to the incoming Infocomm exco, all the best in your term. The most important thing, HAVE FUN.
Sunday, 7 June 2009
Hiding in the Mirror
As some of you might now know, I have 'officially' started on my "Mirror World" project*. The reason why I use the inverted commas is because I have yet to start shooting (pictures), but am doing research into the topic. In the course of my research, I stumbled upon a rather interesting and fascinating book called "Hiding in the Mirror", by Lawrence M. Kauss. It was a pleasurable read, and it took me nearly three weeks to complete it.
Despite being baffled by almost the entire book, since afterall I'm not a physics student and quantum physics and extra dimensional theories are not that easy to comprehend, I gained a few interesting ideas as to how to go about doing my project. Extra dimensions are indeed fascinating and mind-boggling.
I leave you with a quote from the epilogue of the book that struck me.
One never knows where insights will come from, or where they may lead. The pleasure of research is discovering the unexpected.
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*You can find a link to the photos on the left side of my blog.
Despite being baffled by almost the entire book, since afterall I'm not a physics student and quantum physics and extra dimensional theories are not that easy to comprehend, I gained a few interesting ideas as to how to go about doing my project. Extra dimensions are indeed fascinating and mind-boggling.
I leave you with a quote from the epilogue of the book that struck me.
One never knows where insights will come from, or where they may lead. The pleasure of research is discovering the unexpected.
- Lawrence M. Kauss, Hiding in the Mirror
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*You can find a link to the photos on the left side of my blog.
Friday, 5 June 2009
The Final
Week 22: The Final
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts
- William Shakespeare, As You Like It
As the spotlight on the dancer slowly dims and fades away, it is time to leave the stage. My part has ended, now others will take centre stage.
Sunday, 31 May 2009
Ride the Wind
RIDE THE WIND
- Inoue Masahiro
光り歪む その度に
新しい空
僕を目覚め さすように
手招きをする
予想外の 現在地
地図はいらない
とりあえず右 つぎ、左
道は探すさ
それぞれの世界が
僕に求めてくる
通り過ぎずに 戦うこと
Ride the wind 駆け抜けろ このクロニクル
手に入れてゆく 強さのCard
Your eyes will 旅の中 きっと見える
目指すべきゴールの場所が…Just keep on walking
急に幕が開くように
旅は始まる
風をつかむ 羽根みたい
僕は流れる
運命が呼ぶなら
僕なら躊躇しない
すべてのシーン 心に写して
Ride the wind この先になにが待ってる？
手がかりは そお戦うCard
Your eyes will 旅の中 見つかるはず
自分が何をするべきが…Just keep on walking
この風を 止めないで
動き続けもっと前へ
まだ見えぬ 明日へと踏み出せ
Ride the wind 駆け抜けろこのクロニクル
手に入れてゆく 強さのCard
Your eyes will 旅の中見つかるはず
自分が何をするべきが…
Ride the wind ９つの世界の果て
目指すべきゴールの場所が…Just keep on walking!!
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At the moment when the light distorts
I awaken and respond
To the beckoning
Of a new sky
My present location is unknown
And lies outside of the map
I first search the right
And then the left later
In every world
That I pass through
I want to fight
Ride the Wind! Run past this chronicle
And obtain the most powerful Card
In the middle of your journey, your eyes will
Surely be fixed upon the goal destination... Just keep on walking...
When the curtains suddenly open
It informs you that your journey has begun
Like a feather
I flow with the wind
Fate is calling out to me
Without hesitation
I capture the entire scene in my heart
Ride the Wind! What awaits ahead of me?
The clue is the Battle Card
In the middle of your journey, your eyes will discover
The thing you should do... Just keep on walking...
This wind will never stop
And I will always move ahead
I will step into the yet unseen future
Ride the Wind! Run past this chronicle
And obtain the most powerful Card
In the middle of your journey, your eyes will discover
The thing you should do...
Ride the Wind! Aim at the end of the 9 worlds
As the goal destination... Just keep on walking!!
Saturday, 30 May 2009
Magic
Week 21: Magic
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
We are such stuff
As dreams are made on, and our little life
Is rounded with a sleep
- William Shakespeare, The Tempest
Wednesday, 27 May 2009
Roots of the King
ROOTS OF THE KING
TETRA-FANG
その手に浮かび上がる 紋章が証し
闇の色を集め纏う オーラのように
Roots of the king… （×4）
守られるべきものは 種族の掟
背く罪は瞬間 裁かれて
世界を滅ぼすという 力のため
現れた純血の継承者
Judge it, King 紡がれてきた 運命のSaga
その腕にゆだねられた
牙を剥いた者は 永遠に奈落を彷徨う
What is real? 圧倒的な
支配を今 大空に仕掛けてくる
揺るぎない存在 Roots of the king…
その椅子に座るのは 唯（ただ）１人だけ
紛い物は虚しく 消えてゆくだけ
Roots of the king… （×4）
闇の祝福の中 歩み続ける
約束されたステージ 登ってく
世界はまだ気付かずに 回り続け…
選ばれた純血の継承者
Judge it, King 受け継がれてた 運命のSaga
この時代黒く染める
牙を剥いた者は 永遠の死を知るのだろう
What is real? 始まったのは
希望じゃなく 絶望と笑っている
揺るぎない自信は Roots of the king…
光射せば 密かに
影もまた出来るよう
それは決して消せない Roots of blood
Judge it, King 紡がれてきた 運命のSaga
その腕にゆだねられた
牙を剥いた者は 永遠に奈落を彷徨う
What is real? 圧倒的な
支配を今 大空に仕掛けてくる
風が巻き起こって その姿あらわす
Roots of the king…!
Roots of the king…!
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The crest appearing on your hand is proof
Clad in the colours of darkness like the Aurora
Roots of the King...
What is important is to obey your race's law
Those that defy them face instant judgement
Power that can destroy the world
The pure-blooded successor has appeared
Judge it, King! Spin a Saga of fate
Devote it in your heart
Those who face your fangs will wander in hell eternally
What is real? Overwhelming rule is now waging war with the sky
An unwavering being
Roots of the King...
Only one can sit on that throne
Fakes will just lifelessly disappear
Roots of the King...
Continue walking in the prosperity of darkness
Rising to your promised stage
The world continues spinning, unaware...
Of this chosen pure-blood successor!
Judge it, King! Inherit a Saga of fate
Dye this era in blackness
Those who face your fangs will know what eternal death is
What is real? You don't start with hope, in despair you smile
Such unwavering confidence are the
Roots of the King...
Where there is light, secretly,
Shadows are created
Those are the unerasable Roots of Blood...
Judge it, King! Inherit a Saga of fate
Devote it in your heart
Judge it, King! Spin a Saga of fate
Devote it to your heart
Those who face your fangs will wander in hell eternally
What is real? Overwhelming rule is now waging war with the sky
The wind gathers, and that form appears...
Roots of the King...
Tuesday, 26 May 2009
Quick Rant
Loads of work to do, so little time. Holidays' round the corner, so are the exams. I need more time, I'd rather read on quantum physics and the theory of relativity rather than study for some stupid tests.
Sunday, 24 May 2009
Cornered
Week 20: Cornered
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
That's how the past week felt like, cornered and left with no choice, except to struggle through. One more week to holidays!
Saturday, 16 May 2009
Saturday, 9 May 2009
タイムベント
Week 18: タイムベント
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
タイムベント (Time Vent)
- 時間の逆行。 (Going back in time.)
Thursday, 7 May 2009
Stuck in a Rut
My head hurts, my brain can't seem to function, and I've got work to be done. I can't seem to drag myself of the downward spiralling mess, and I just can't seem to get myself going.
I can't stand the reasoning that "You're doing this for your future." The truth is that the thing called "the future" is the most uncertain thing on earth. What is more real, "the present" or "the future"? If anyone is saying the future, go shoot yourself or something. Obviously "the present" has a greater hold on you than "the future". It's irritating to be told that whatever you suffer now is for the better good in "the future". Sometimes, it's just too difficult to try and realise "the future".
I can't stand the reasoning that "You're doing this for your future." The truth is that the thing called "the future" is the most uncertain thing on earth. What is more real, "the present" or "the future"? If anyone is saying the future, go shoot yourself or something. Obviously "the present" has a greater hold on you than "the future". It's irritating to be told that whatever you suffer now is for the better good in "the future". Sometimes, it's just too difficult to try and realise "the future".
Saturday, 2 May 2009
仮面の勇者
Week 17: 仮面の勇者
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
仮面の勇者 (Kamen no Yuusha)
- The Masked Heroes
This is a tribute to my favourite heroes, the Kamen Riders, or "Masked Riders".
When I look back in time, these were the heroes that inspired me, that got me working and happy. Even if they are fiction, they are the ones who brought me joy and hope, even now.
Monday, 20 April 2009
The Awaiting Dragon
Week 16: The Awaiting Dragon
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Sometimes in life, the good things only come with patience. When the opportune moment comes, only then do you take off.
Wednesday, 8 April 2009
Lights & Reflections
Week 15: Lights & Reflections
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
"見上げる星それぞれの歴史が輝いて
星座の様線で結ぶ瞬間始まる Legend" - Journey Through the Decade, Gackt
"I look up at the stars, and see various sagas shining
Like the constellations, only when you connect them with lines does a legend start" - Journey Through the Decade, Gackt
Only when you connect the lines, you see a full picture.
Monday, 30 March 2009
ミラーワールド (Mirror World)
Week 14: ミラーワールド (Mirror World)
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
This was taken during VJC's Expose 2. This is probably the start to another series of photos which I'm planning and is based around the "mirror stage". The "mirror stage" was a theory proposed by French psychoanalyst and psychiatrist, Jacques Lacan. I hope to read up more on him, and plan for more of such photos to come.
Friday, 27 March 2009
Memory Space
Week 13: Memory Space
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
The last week was quite a bother. How I wished my brain had a USB port for me to plug in an external hard drive - the amount of history I have to memorise is a killer...
Sunday, 22 March 2009
Guided Steps
Week 12: Guided Steps
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
This was my second night photography 'subject' in that sense, and this is a remake of it.
Everything seems so dark and bleak, but there are those lamp posts out there give you some light along the way. Sometimes, all you have to do is look out for the lights, and climb carefully on.
Friday, 20 March 2009
An Irony?
Holiday - noun
1. a day fixed by law or custom on which ordinary business is suspended in commemoration of some event or in honor of some person.
2. any day of exemption from work
3. a time or period of exemption from any requirement, duty, assessment, etc.: New businesses may be granted a one-year tax holiday.
4. a religious feast day; holy day, esp. any of several usually commemorative holy days observed in Judaism.
5. Sometimes, holidays. Chiefly British. a period of cessation from work or one of recreation; vacation.
From the above definitions, it seems that the education system in Singapore defines holiday differently.
Holiday - Singaporean definition: Noun
1. A time period that is supposed to allow students to rest, but in truth it's just 24/7 studying for the student.
Journey Through the Decade
見上げる星 それぞれの歴史が輝いて
星座の様 線で結ぶ瞬間 始まるLegend
Aurora揺らめく時空超えて
飛び込む 迷走するParallel world
On the road 誰も旅の途中 本当の自分自身出会うため
歩き続けるのさ今を We are all travelers
僕の目の前に広がる 九つの道はいつか重なって
新しい夜明けへと続く道に変わるのだろう
目撃せよ Journey though the Decade
レンズ越しに切り取った景色を見つめても
真実とは 心の目の中に映るものさ
何処かで 戦いの幕が開き
僕という現実さらうHalation
On the road 旅に出る理由は 世界が滅びる未来変えるため
もっと強く夢を抱け We are all dreamers
僕の運命は必ず 十度目に立ち上がったその時に
新しい風通り抜ける 道が開くのだろう
目撃せよ Journey though the Decade
自分が瞬間ごとに決断する その全てで
未来は理想にも絶望にも変わって行く
だからきっと信じた道 走れ
On the road 誰も旅の途中 本当の自分自身出会うため
歩き続けるのさ今を We are all travelers
僕の目の前に広がる 九つの道はいつか重なって
新しい夜明けへと続く道に変わるのだろう
目撃せよ Journey though the Decade
I look up at the stars, and see various sagas shining
Like the constellations, only when you connect them with lines does a legend start
Aurora - Pass through the flickering dimensions
Dive into that straying parallel world...
On the road, everyone is in the middle of a journey to find his own true self
Carry on walking, for we are all travelers
The nine roads before my eyes will someday overlap and
Will probably transform into a road that runs down to a new dawn
Be witness to it... Journey Through the Decade...
When you look beyond the lens that cut off the scenery
The reality will be reflected in the the vision of your heart
In any opening, a struggle will begin
The real me is swept away by halation...
On the road, the reason to travel is to change the imminent destruction of the world
Embracing our dreams even strongly, we are all dreamers
My fate is certainly to stand at the tenth time
Then new roads would probably open, and a new breath will sweep by
Be witness to it... Journey Through the Decade...
Everything has been decided upon at every instant
This is to transform the future from its ideals and hopelessness
So I'll run on the roads that I believe in...
On the road, everyone is in the middle of a journey to find his own true self
Carry on walking, for we are all travelers
The nine roads before my eyes will someday overlap and
Will probably transform into a road that runs down to a new dawn
Be witness to it... Journey Through the Decade...
Monday, 16 March 2009
Hyper Detail Molding Kamen Rider Kiva (Garuru Form)
Hyper Detail Molding Kamen Rider Kiva (Garuru Form)
Another detailed model which I bought recently. The details are stunning for this 10 cm model. And the best part, it only cost $8. This kind of detail for $8, real worth the money. There's a reason why it's called "Hyper Detail Molding". Even the chains and armour are molded with great detail. The mask is also nicely made.
Wednesday, 11 March 2009
The Real You
Week 11: The Real You
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Week 11: The Real You
"誰も旅の途中、本当の自分自身出会う為..." - Gackt
"Everyone is in the middle of a journey, to find his own true self..." - Gackt
Events over yesterday (10th March) and today (11th March) made me think about what it means to be human, and made me question my own humanity.
What exactly makes a human? Fundamentally, it is the body and the soul. But I think there's more to it, like human emotions. Maybe what someone told me is true, I'm suppressing my emotions too much.
Sunday, 8 March 2009
The Magic Window
Week 10: The Magic Window
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Week 10: The Magic Window
Looking out in the distant horizon, for hope lies beyond.
Monday, 2 March 2009
A Prayer in the Night
As of the time I started to type this, it is 1.44am. Sometimes, God works in mysterious and wondrous ways, and works in the most unearthly hours to move the heart of His child. I've been really tired of school lately. I haven't found any strength or motivation to move on lately. It is so tiring to move along with 4 or 5 hours of sleep a day. The amount of time I spend awake in school is so much more than the amount of time I spend awake at home.
I had been lying in bed for the past hour or so, trying to get to sleep. But for some reason, I was just too troubled by all my school work. 3 tests in this week, coupled with all the normal lectures and tutorials I have to do/attend to, it's just too tiring for me. But God has His purpose in preventing me from sleeping, and that is to remind me of His goodness and mercies. Oh how long have I not asked Him for His grace and His strength! Oh how long have I not sought His face in true earnestness!
LORD God Almighty,
Thou art sovereign over all things. Forgive me O LORD of all my wicked sins, forgive me O LORD for forgetting Thy power. I come before Thee, knowing that Thou art almighty, and Thou art in control of everything. Heavenly Father, I'm tired of running on. O LORD how oft in grief have I found relief in Thee. Why O LORD why, why have I forgotten Thy mercies. LORD I thank Thee for Thy chastising hand upon me, for bringing me back into Thy fold. I come before Thee, not as a man, but as Thy humble servant. I pray that Thou wouldst grant me strength to move on in these tiresome times. I pray that even as these trying times should seek to undo me, LORD I pray that Thou would keep me. LORD God almighty, I feel so tired, and I cannot bear all my burdens alone. I'm about to be crushed under the weight of all my burdens. Help me O Father, help me to life up these burdens and teach me to cast all my cares upon Thee. Teach me to pray, teach me to learn Thy truths, teach me never to forsake Thee LORD. Why O God dost Thou put me through all these diffculties? Why, why, why? Show me Thy way O LORD, and make it plain; help me to sing as the hymn writer sang, "O yes, He cares! I know He cares! His heart is touched with my grief! When the days are weary, the long nights dreary, I know my Saviour cares!"
I pray that as I move along in these weeks of school, LORD help me not to forsake my service unto Thee. LORD Thou knowest my troubles, Thou knowest my pain. Thou knowest my sorrow, and Thou knowest my needs. Give me O LORD, the strength to carry on with both my church commitments, and my school commitments. I'm overcome with tiredness to the point that I cannot even sleep. But Thou hast promised, "Come unto me, all ye that labour and I will give you rest." LORD, teach me to carry Thy yoke, and learn from Thee. Teach me I pray, to lean not unto my own understanding, and not to rely on my own strength; but to completely and wholeheartedly place my trust in Thee. LORD God, I submit my life unto Thee. All my talents I surrender unto Thee. All my sorrows and burdens I cast upon Thee. Help me through these trying times O LORD, help me through.
For all these I pray in the name of my blessed LORD and Saviour Jesus Christ,
Amen.
I had been lying in bed for the past hour or so, trying to get to sleep. But for some reason, I was just too troubled by all my school work. 3 tests in this week, coupled with all the normal lectures and tutorials I have to do/attend to, it's just too tiring for me. But God has His purpose in preventing me from sleeping, and that is to remind me of His goodness and mercies. Oh how long have I not asked Him for His grace and His strength! Oh how long have I not sought His face in true earnestness!
LORD God Almighty,
Thou art sovereign over all things. Forgive me O LORD of all my wicked sins, forgive me O LORD for forgetting Thy power. I come before Thee, knowing that Thou art almighty, and Thou art in control of everything. Heavenly Father, I'm tired of running on. O LORD how oft in grief have I found relief in Thee. Why O LORD why, why have I forgotten Thy mercies. LORD I thank Thee for Thy chastising hand upon me, for bringing me back into Thy fold. I come before Thee, not as a man, but as Thy humble servant. I pray that Thou wouldst grant me strength to move on in these tiresome times. I pray that even as these trying times should seek to undo me, LORD I pray that Thou would keep me. LORD God almighty, I feel so tired, and I cannot bear all my burdens alone. I'm about to be crushed under the weight of all my burdens. Help me O Father, help me to life up these burdens and teach me to cast all my cares upon Thee. Teach me to pray, teach me to learn Thy truths, teach me never to forsake Thee LORD. Why O God dost Thou put me through all these diffculties? Why, why, why? Show me Thy way O LORD, and make it plain; help me to sing as the hymn writer sang, "O yes, He cares! I know He cares! His heart is touched with my grief! When the days are weary, the long nights dreary, I know my Saviour cares!"
I pray that as I move along in these weeks of school, LORD help me not to forsake my service unto Thee. LORD Thou knowest my troubles, Thou knowest my pain. Thou knowest my sorrow, and Thou knowest my needs. Give me O LORD, the strength to carry on with both my church commitments, and my school commitments. I'm overcome with tiredness to the point that I cannot even sleep. But Thou hast promised, "Come unto me, all ye that labour and I will give you rest." LORD, teach me to carry Thy yoke, and learn from Thee. Teach me I pray, to lean not unto my own understanding, and not to rely on my own strength; but to completely and wholeheartedly place my trust in Thee. LORD God, I submit my life unto Thee. All my talents I surrender unto Thee. All my sorrows and burdens I cast upon Thee. Help me through these trying times O LORD, help me through.
For all these I pray in the name of my blessed LORD and Saviour Jesus Christ,
Amen.
Sunday, 1 March 2009
Fusion Works RX-93 ν Gundam
RX-93 ν Gundam(from Mobile Suit Gundam: Char's Counterattack)
This is a Fusion Works model, and it cost me S$24. (Yeah, I'm broke right now.) But the amount of sheer detail on this 10cm tall guy is really great. If I were to take a 100% crop of the photo, you would be able to see the sheer detail in the face itself. And the head of the model is merely 1 cm!
Saturday, 28 February 2009
Distorted Realities
Week 9: Distorted Realities
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Week 9: Distorted Realities
"Why is this world so distorted?" - Setsuna F Seiei, Mobile Suit Gundam 00
The line between the real and the unreal is so thin. Sometimes, the real just seems so unreal, while the unreal just seems so real. Which is which?
Thursday, 26 February 2009
The True Self
"誰も旅の途中、本当の自分自身出会う為" - Everyone is in the midst of a journey to find his own true self...
Sometimes, I wonder to myself, is there reason for me to do everything I'm doing right now? Why on earth am I studying so hard for, and for what reason? I don't see any sense in what I'm studying, and I don't like most of the subjects that I'm taking. I don't enjoy myself in school, and I don't enjoy myself at home either. Sometimes, there are so many things in my mind that I can't really think straight and clearly anymore. People always tell me to think less, but I just can't. Too many things go on in my mind at one time, to the point that my brain overloads. Maybe that's why I have recurrent headaches. I'm just typing whatever that comes to my mind right now, cause right now, my entire brain is in a mess. I have a million and one readings for history, and I'm barely done with my second set of readings.
Sometimes I wonder to myself: "Why bother with church choir? See, now your Saturdays are completely busy, how to do your homework? Why bother with church activities? Why bother with school? Why do you care so much? Why are you bothering about things that most people don't? Why do you have to help people when they don't appreciate you at all? Why study so hard when you don't get any rewards? Sure, studying isn't about rewards, but being human and getting some form of reward would be an encouragement at times. Why pursue photography when you don't have the money? Why make Gunpla when you don't have an airgun and you're not like the professionals? Why do I keep comparing myself with someone else of a higher standard? Sure, it's to improve myself, but I'm still stuck at that lousy level! Why do you bother so much about history, when probably others only rush at the last minute? But then again, what makes you think that others ain't doing extra? Why are you not putting effort into lit and econs? Why is it that your GP is merely average? Why are you so bothered about your math? Why can't you just throw all these thoughts out of the window and out of your mind once and for all? Why do you keep asking why? Why do you not solve the problems? Why do I not have enough time on my hands? Why do I keep thinking in this cyclic motion and just fall deeper into sadness? Maybe you have depression? Maybe you need medication? Maybe you need to trust God more? Maybe you need to stop thinking so much? Why am I thinking of problems everywhere? Why can't I stop thinking? Why? Why? Why?"
Sometimes, I just want to stop. Drop everything I'm holding. Grab my camera. Go on a journey, and never return. Don't be surprised to not see me around. I might just have gone. I'll return when I find the answer.
Sometimes, I wonder to myself, is there reason for me to do everything I'm doing right now? Why on earth am I studying so hard for, and for what reason? I don't see any sense in what I'm studying, and I don't like most of the subjects that I'm taking. I don't enjoy myself in school, and I don't enjoy myself at home either. Sometimes, there are so many things in my mind that I can't really think straight and clearly anymore. People always tell me to think less, but I just can't. Too many things go on in my mind at one time, to the point that my brain overloads. Maybe that's why I have recurrent headaches. I'm just typing whatever that comes to my mind right now, cause right now, my entire brain is in a mess. I have a million and one readings for history, and I'm barely done with my second set of readings.
Sometimes I wonder to myself: "Why bother with church choir? See, now your Saturdays are completely busy, how to do your homework? Why bother with church activities? Why bother with school? Why do you care so much? Why are you bothering about things that most people don't? Why do you have to help people when they don't appreciate you at all? Why study so hard when you don't get any rewards? Sure, studying isn't about rewards, but being human and getting some form of reward would be an encouragement at times. Why pursue photography when you don't have the money? Why make Gunpla when you don't have an airgun and you're not like the professionals? Why do I keep comparing myself with someone else of a higher standard? Sure, it's to improve myself, but I'm still stuck at that lousy level! Why do you bother so much about history, when probably others only rush at the last minute? But then again, what makes you think that others ain't doing extra? Why are you not putting effort into lit and econs? Why is it that your GP is merely average? Why are you so bothered about your math? Why can't you just throw all these thoughts out of the window and out of your mind once and for all? Why do you keep asking why? Why do you not solve the problems? Why do I not have enough time on my hands? Why do I keep thinking in this cyclic motion and just fall deeper into sadness? Maybe you have depression? Maybe you need medication? Maybe you need to trust God more? Maybe you need to stop thinking so much? Why am I thinking of problems everywhere? Why can't I stop thinking? Why? Why? Why?"
Sometimes, I just want to stop. Drop everything I'm holding. Grab my camera. Go on a journey, and never return. Don't be surprised to not see me around. I might just have gone. I'll return when I find the answer.
Real Tired
I have so many things to do, to the point that I'm going to collapse. I just feel like throwing away everything and walking empty handed.
"Life is a long path to a goal. Drop your heavy luggage and enjoy walking with your hands empty."
Sunday, 22 February 2009
Distant Lights
Distant Lights
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Week 8: Distant Lights
Hope is there, just blurred and really far away.
Monday, 16 February 2009
Bad Luck...
You know there are times when things never seem to make sense, and when everything seems to be failing. I’ve had like 4 straight days of ‘bad luck’ already. On Friday, my camera decided to go all PMS-y on me. Well, people were saying that it’s because it was “Friday the 13th”, but that’s just nonsense since I don’t believe in superstition.
But if it really was the Friday the 13th ‘bad luck’, then it wouldn’t explain the ‘bad luck’ that followed on Saturday and Sunday. I mean my plans were all messed up on those two days, and all the stupid amount of work I have to do doesn’t seem to be easing out. Then there’s today. I tell you, the red sun in the morning was like a bad omen. And well, things happened in class today which I shall not elaborate on. And at the end of the day, more work! When will my chain of ‘bad luck’ end?!
Lately everything doesn’t seem to be working out for me. Nothing seems to be registering in my head in school. No wait, nothing seems to be registering in my head at all.
But if it really was the Friday the 13th ‘bad luck’, then it wouldn’t explain the ‘bad luck’ that followed on Saturday and Sunday. I mean my plans were all messed up on those two days, and all the stupid amount of work I have to do doesn’t seem to be easing out. Then there’s today. I tell you, the red sun in the morning was like a bad omen. And well, things happened in class today which I shall not elaborate on. And at the end of the day, more work! When will my chain of ‘bad luck’ end?!
Lately everything doesn’t seem to be working out for me. Nothing seems to be registering in my head in school. No wait, nothing seems to be registering in my head at all.
Sunday, 15 February 2009
Victory!
Victory!
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
His tag is number 1, and he came in number 1. Coincidence?
TJC Road Run '09.
Sunday, 8 February 2009
希望
希望
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
希望 - Kibou, "Hope" in Japanese.
Well, life is really crappy right now. But there's hope out there. I guess?
Tuesday, 3 February 2009
River
何もかも上手く行かない もどかしさに
焦る気持ちを押さえて
はがゆさと苛立たしさに 心乱れ
抱え込んだ膝小僧
悔しさをこらえて 涙に震えて
泣いた夜が明ける
そう
確かに君の言う通りだよ
今なら引き返せるけれども
つまらない意地を張り続けてる
歩き始めた以上 諦めない
もう一度 この手にチャンスを…
全てこの胸の中にしまっておこう
夢が叶うまで…
やるせない儚さに 身をゆだねるほど
そんな危うい時代に
あがいても手の届かない 岸を目指し
無我夢中で泳いだ
流れに逆らう 声も上げられない
行き止まりの場所で
そう
愛が全てを助けるとは 思わない
だけど君の微笑み
心を癒すその唇に 立ち上がる勇気を
もらうのさ
もう一度 この手にチャンスを…
川の流れは今日も激しいけれど
君の手は離さない
いつも この胸の中の愛を信じていよう
夢が叶うまで…
そう
愛が全てを助けるとは 思わない
だけど君の微笑み
心を癒すその唇に 立ち上がる勇気を
もらうのさ
確かに君の言う通りだよ
今なら引き返せるけれども
つまらない意地を張り続けてる
歩き始めた以上 諦めない
もう一度 この手にチャンスを…
川の流れは今日も激しいけれど
君の手は離さない
いつも この胸の中の愛を信じていよう
夢が叶うまで…
Sunday, 1 February 2009
WAKE YOU UP
心つながる 瞬間があるよ
不思議な感じ 見えない時でも
非常ドア越し せえので駆け出そう
闇を抜けて 光の出口へ
臆病風 吹き付ける 明日への通路
平気さ僕は ひとりじゃない
大丈夫 僕が勇気を送るよ
悲しみも トラブルも 分かち合えると信じてる
ひとりじゃいつでも待ってた奇跡
君となら起こせるって気付いた
同じ夢 追いかけて ふたり走り抜けよう
膝を抱えた あの日の夕闇
スキマだらけの 僕達が出会って
潤んだ瞳 一緒に笑ったね
涙の雨 うつむかず 今は進めるよ
雨のち晴れを見ていたい
まっすぐ夢見る翼をくれた
戸惑いもはがゆさも 手を取り合って 消して 行こう
いつか離れて道が途切れても
消えない絆がきっと導く
思い出も未来図も 光る追い風になれ
そうさWAKE YOU UP
もしも君が挫けそうな時も
大丈夫 僕が勇気を送るよ
悲しみも トラブルも 分かち合えると信じてる
ひとりじゃいつでも待ってた奇跡
君となら起こせるって気付いた
同じ夢 追いかけて ふたり走り抜けよう
Saturday, 31 January 2009
Crossroads of Destiny
Crossroads of Destiny
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Week 5: Crossroads of Destiny
This photo is a remake of my old photo. Reason why I called it "Crossroads of Destiny" is because this was probably THE turning point in my pursuit of photography. During Photog Camp in June of 2008, Lincoln and myself were photographing things at night, and that got me interested in Night Photography. It was then that I tried out shooting stuff at night, and this crossroads was one of my first subjects.
I purposefully remade this shot because right now, I'm very confused over everything. Like how hectic and messy all the light trails are, my mind is probably very much like that now.
Saturday, 24 January 2009
Bad Day
With reference to 23rd January.
Day was totally crapped up for me. And I emo-ed out after school.
Friday, 23 January 2009
Looming Presence
Looming Presence
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Week 4: Looming Presence
Sonia dragged me on Wednesday to Halus cause she really wanted to see the place. So being the nice guy that I am, I obliged. (See, I'm nice.)
While Sonia and Sam were shooting above ground, I went below the tall grass. The results, stuff that I really like =D
Saturday, 17 January 2009
Boredom
Boredom
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
Week 3: Boredom
School has started. My brain is drained. I'm working on something for week 4. Hopefully I'll make up for this week. My brain is fried. T_T
Friday, 16 January 2009
1st Week of School
Wow, I survived one whole week of school. I can't believe myself. Yay me!
Man, the first week was bad enough, I can't imagine the other weeks. *Sighs*
I'm wondering what to shoot for APAW week 3. I'm thinking "Isolation"? Or maybe "Water Marks"? Or maybe "Rectangles and Squares"? Sigh, so many decisions...
Monday, 12 January 2009
1st Day of J2 Life...
It's rare that I talk about the day. But I just had to man. I mean c'mon, it's like a milestone in life (right, who am I kidding?)
Today was an UTTER WASTE OF TIME. Period. The moment I stepped into College and smelt the air of school, I wanted to step out. Yeah, that was how bad it was (no, not the smell, the thought and the fact of going back to school lah!)
First period, Civics, aka let's sit down and talk and catch up. Then we had a principal's address and college rules and blah blah blah what not (all the regular stuff that you get on the first day of school). And school was over at 10am. Can you believe it? I went to school for that?!?! Why did I even go?
Tomorrow's timetable looks crappy as well. First, we have math lecture. Then we have econs lecture. And school's over for open house... How exciting. You can just smell the excitement.
I'm not done with quite a bit of work. Mundane life is back... Sleep at 1am, wake up at 5.30am. Cycle goes on till holidays. Sighs...
Thursday, 8 January 2009
Halus Pano
Halus Pano (Colour)
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
APAW 2009, Week 2.
Title: Reflections
*Thanks to Sam who brought me! =D
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
Random Thoughts. Okay, maybe not so random.
It's been a while since I seriously built a model. I'm thinking of modifying my GN-001 Gundam Exia into a GN-001RE Gundam Exia Repair.
And I still have 1/100 Red Astray, 1/144 Psycho Gundam (yes, they are more than a year old now), 1/144 GN Arms (yes, it's a year old), 1/144 Raider Gundam, SD Zeta Gundam, 1/35 Lancelot Air Calvary.
That's a total of 7 unbuilt models! And I'm thinking about getting an SD Exia and modifying it to a SD Exia Repair as well.
Why are the holidays almost over already?
Saturday, 3 January 2009
Adjustments
Adjustments
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
There are times in life when things seem to be too cold or too hot. If the situation is unfavourable, just get up, and make some adjustments. You might just feel better.
Thursday, 1 January 2009
A Long Way to Go!
A Long Way to Go!
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam
2009 is finally here. At the start of each year, people tend to make resolutions. Well, the day is almost over as of the time I'm posting this. I can't think of any other resolution, except that I want to walk closer with God this year.
I know that this year will be different because of someone whom God has brought into my life. (No, not in that sense which you are thinking in.) But really, I'm thankful to God for that person, someone who actually helped me find an answer to the question which has been bothering me for half my life.
Oh yeah, the day is almost over, but still, Happy Birthday Sarah! =D
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Almighty God,
Grant me a passion for souls, a passion for the souls of the youths. Forgive me O LORD of my sins, but use me for Thy glory, be it in school or in church. I'm unworthy to be used by Thee, but Thou has graciously saved me and willing to use me. Help me O God I pray. Bless me in my studies, but more importantly, bless me in my walk with Thee. Keep me near to Thee! Draw me nearer to Thee O LORD!
I pray for all the youths in Gethsemane. LORD, bless us all. Help us all to be good testimonies in our respective schools and places where we go to. Help all the youths to love Thee more, to walk closer with Thee, to win more souls for Thee! Help all the youths I pray, keep us all. Forgive me, and pardon me O LORD. O how unworthy I am! Forgive me, restore me!
The year ahead is long, and LORD I know it will be tiring. But LORD, keep me and guide me. Guide me O Thou great Jehovah! Help me to never forsake Thee. Help all the youths to never forsake Thee.
LORD, I dread the new school term. I'm afraid, so very afraid. Forgive me of my human weaknesses, but help me to continually serve Thee, knowing that Thou art the God who made all things from nothing. So help me LORD, to trust in Thee evermore.
In Jesus most blessed and holy name,
AMEN.
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