Wednesday, 31 December 2008

Beyond the Sunset

Well, it's the last day of the year 2008, and time has so quickly flew past. As I reflect upon the year 2008, I cannot help but feel God's mercies and graces aiding me through all the days of my life. It seems that every year, different troubles will plague God's children, but at the same time, God grants sufficient grace to pull through the year.

As I recall every event in the year (okay, at least the major events since my memory is failing me these days), God has been with me since. From my awaiting of the O Level results, to my choosing of schools, and even through this entire year, God has been merciful and has been showing me the way, guiding me through. I never thought I could have pulled through 2008, but nothing is impossible with God. Sure, I may be capable of doing well enough, but I know that I'm not capable of doing well, at least not without God's help. I really could not have done well for my EOYs without divine help.

Well, I really don't know what to say at times. But I thought I should just pen down my thoughts somewhere, and maybe look back at it someday. 2009 is only half a day away (from the time I'm posting), and I'm really troubled by the A Levels next year. (Yeah, I know I shouldn't be worrying, but still, it's a natural human reaction.) I just pray that I would not fail in serving God, even if it means failing in school. With all humbleness, I pray that God will lead me through the next year, and all the remaining days of my life.

There's a reason why I chose the title to be "Beyond the Sunset". This is because I want to remind myself of the hymn, "Beyond the Sunset".
Beyond the sunset, O blissful morn,
When with our Saviour heav'n is begun.
Earth's toiling ended, O glorious dawning;
Beyond the sunset, when day is done.

I need to remind myself that my time on this earth is temporal, and I should always seek God's will in my life first.

Almighty, merciful Heavenly Father,

LORD God, forgive me for the sins that I have committed in 2008. Forgive me O LORD, for time and time again straying from Thee. Forgive me O LORD, of all my human weaknesses. Restore me O LORD, restore me to Thy fold.

As the new year dawns, help me to seek Thy face evermore; to ask of Thy graces evermore. Help me to always trust in Thee, to trust in Thee to guide me through both my studies and commitment in church. LORD God Almighty, Thou created everything out of nothing; nothing is impossible for Thee.

I pray that I would not neglect my commitments in church in the pursuit of my studies. Chastise me O LORD, if I ever forget. I pray for the youths, many of them will be taking their O Levels in 2009, LORD I pray that Thou wilt be merciful unto them, and bless them in their studies. Help them to always seek Thee in their time of need. I pray that the youths would be regular in attending GYBH. Help them to understand O Father, that Thy word is life, and everything else is but loss. Help all the youths to be regular in their attendance, so that they will not miss out on all the spiritual blessings on Saturday afternoons.

I pray for those who are receiving their O Level results, LORD bless their efforts during the year 2008. Give them results that would enable them to take the course that they would like to take. I pray that Thou wilt grant all the O Level students wisdom to choose wisely which route they should take in 2009, whether they should be in a JC or a polytechnic. As Thou has comforted and guided me in my time of need, I pray the same for the other youths.

O LORD, keep all the youths I pray, keep all the youths from the temptation of the world. Keep us O LORD from the attack of the evil one. In this time of peril, temptation is everywhere! Grant all the youths discernment, to keep away from evil, and to keep in the narrow way. Bless us O LORD, bless us. Keep us from the evil one, help us to remain focused on Thee, and never lose sight of our final destination. Keep us from falling I pray.

In Jesus most blessed and holy name,

Tuesday, 30 December 2008

The Radiance of the Sun

The Radiance of the Sun
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Re-edit from Church Camp. I prefer this over the previous upload.

For photos from Combined Youth Games, wait till 1st January. I hit my upload limit for this month...

Monday, 22 December 2008


I'm searching for answers to the many questions I have in my head. The funny thing is, the more answers I seek, the more questions appear. The more questions I have, the more answers I need, and even more questions pop up. Destiny is a funny thing; seems that in life, more questions than answers can be found. There are times when you feel so troubled and confused about life, and really at a complete loss as to what to do. Right now, life seems to be in a big mess for me. Feeling really troubled, I really needed someone to say nice things, or a word of encouragement to me.

I'm really worried for next year. I'm J2 next year, that means the A Levels. I'm still in Youth Committee next year, that means more work. These two things are going to be hard to balance, and I know it. That's the problem with human beings, we think too much, and then we worry about the future. And when we worry, we feel troubled.

I was feeling real troubled last night, and thank God for the encouragement I received from some friends. I mean someone told me that I seemed like the kind that would lead in Youth, and I was really quite... apprehensive (dunno if this correctly describes what I'm thinking) because I didn't feel like that kind of a person. I really couldn't think much about being a good leader, since I haven't done much for Youth this year because I was so stretched in school. I doubt myself so much. But this was what a friend told me: "You have in some ways, this year especially, been an example to me. I don't believe in looks. But I see you in church, I see you helping in the AV system, I see you going out to cover church events, I see you able to talk to both the adults and the teens, I see you kind to the kids, and I've seen you mature beyond the angst that plagued you in secondary school. I know you've a desire to serve. To me that's someone who could lead the youths. It's not about ability in the end, it's the desire to serve. and you have that desire. And hey, I think God has granted you the ability to lead, to make the right choices, to consult the right people, to even while you struggle with your own spiritual life be able to talk with other youths about their issues and stuff."

I really thank God for the encouragement that he gave me through my friends. With that, I pray that next year I'd be able to serve Him even more next year.

Wednesday, 10 December 2008

Lights and Stairs

Lights and Stairs
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

A night photo from Bintan Agro Beach Resort and Spa. In fact, the only night photo. I was too tired by night, and I couldn't afford to lose sleep. But this captured my attention, and I made sure that I took this photo or I would regret.

Enjoy =D

Tuesday, 9 December 2008

Strangers & Pilgrims

Strangers & Pilgrims
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

“We’re a pilgrim band that’s headed for the glory land of light…”

“Strangers and Pilgrims” – the theme for the church camp this year. I didn’t have much of an idea when I first saw the theme for this year’s church camp, so with much anticipation I attended the camp, in hope of learning more.

Every year church camp is a time of spiritual revival; the revival for me this year was ‘stronger’ than before. Now that 2008 is almost over, and when I reflect upon the year, I noticed how little time I had spent with God, and how much I concentrated on my school work. I was reminded during the camp, with what someone in the church had told me earlier on in the year: don’t be distracted by school work. Again, I committed the same mistake as I did last year. “Strangers and Pilgrims” was a timely reminder, a reminder that my time on this earth is but temporal.

In Rev Quek’s words, a ‘stranger’ is an alien who is in a foreign land, and a ‘pilgrim’ is a stranger who has stayed in the land for a long time. A stranger and a pilgrim look forward to a brighter hope, the ‘glory land of light’. As a Christian, one must not be a Permanent Resident (PR) of this sin filled earth, let alone be a citizen.

“As a pilgrim I look for a better country, which my LORD is preparing for me…”

The morning devotions were preached by Rev Reggor. The devotions were reminders of God’s unfailing mercies, and God’s infinite power. Indeed God has been merciful to me throughout the entire year, and has showcased His power throughout the year. Life in Junior College (JC) hasn’t been a bed of roses. Being a rather lazy person, 2008 was the first time in years that I actually found it so difficult to study. The amount of content for all the subjects, they are just too much to handle. If not for God’s grace and mercies, I would not have been able to cope with all the work.

The main messages were preached by Rev Quek. Rev Quek taught us from the book of Genesis, from the life of a great pilgrim, Abraham. Constant emphasis was placed on the need to have a changed mindset to the world. Hebrews 11:13 states that in order to have a changed mindset, we need to be ‘persuaded’, need to ‘embrace’, and need to ‘confess’. We need to be persuaded to leave the worldly pleasures, and embrace God’s salvation. And we need to confess our decision through our actions. Without God, no one can be a stranger or a pilgrim. Abraham had little of the Word, since there was no written word (the Bible) during his time, and all he had was the voice of God. God told him to leave his hometown and become a stranger and a pilgrim, and he willingly obeyed. Much faith was needed on Abraham’s part to believe that he would be a father of the great nation of Israel! Rev Quek’s messages emphasized on the need for the Christian to daily depend on God to make godly choices. Godly choices are not the best choices; neither are they the first choices. The decisions that a Christian make would impact both him and those around him, as well as his own eternity. It is only through a close walk with God that godly choices can be made. Abraham forgot to consult God, and made wrong choices. But his return to God was a godly choice in itself.

“There’ll be glory for me at the end of this road. There’ll be glory that outshines my troubles here…”

Rev Koshy preached in the evening messages, on the Christian’s glorious hope. Everything that happens is for God’s glory, even men’s salvation! There is inexplicable glory in heaven awaiting the Christian; glory that will outshine all the troubles on this earth. When a Christian finally returns to his true home, all the trials on earth would seem so small, and all the troubles are all nothing.

“Even so, come, Lord Jesus!”

Oh God, when my time on this earth is over, take me home! I want to see Thy glory in its full majesty! May Thou return, as quickly as possible! I cannot bear my burdens alone. I want to go home, to my final resting place.

Now on a less serious note, I think my cholestrol levels shot up real high. Over the 5 days, I ate close to 80 prawns. Poor Sarah Lee who sat beside me for most of my meals... Apparently she's traumatized by my eating habits. =P

Monday, 8 December 2008


Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Shot of roses from Prom Night. I was bored to death that night, and the next day was church camp. I shouldn't have gone to shoot that night!

Anyways, selective colouring FTW!

Sunday, 7 December 2008

The Stairs

The Stairs
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

My first 'abstract' shot. More to come in the future.

P.S. This was taken during class chalet.

Saturday, 6 December 2008


I'm back from Church Camp! This year is arguably the most tiring year. JC life is tiring, and church camp is always a time to relax. But this year, being the official photographer, it's so tiring.

Full report will come another day, along with photos. I need to catch up on sleep. Very tired.

Saturday, 29 November 2008

No one ever knows...

... the sound I make.

Friday, 28 November 2008

No seriously.

Sometimes I wish the world would just stop spinning for a day.

Just one day.

Thursday, 27 November 2008


It hurts. Really badly.

Monday, 24 November 2008

Christmas Wishlist

Here's my Christmas wishlist! =D

  • AF 85mm f/1.8D
  • AF-S 14-24mm f/2.8G ED
  • AF-S 24-70mm f/2.8G ED
  • AF-S Micro VR 105 f/2.8G
  • A new handphone
  • A new laptop (with 3GB RAM)
  • A new ballhead for my tripod
Can anyone give any of the above to me? Afterall, Christmas is supposedly about the 'spirit of giving'? Or you could donate to Matthew's Camera Fund. Either way would be nice. =D

Sunday, 23 November 2008

What Big Eyes You Have!

What Big Eyes You Have
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Picture of Jorim taken today with my new 50mm f/1.8! =D

Anyways, I was like looking through the Nikon lenses. And since the DX lenses aren't that great, I skipped that whole portion on DX lenses, and looked at the Standard lenses, Wide Angle zoom lenses, and Standard Zoom lenses.

Stuff that would be nice to own:
- AF 85mm f/1.8D
- AF-S 14-24mm f/2.8G ED
- AF-S 24-70mm f/2.8G ED

Stuff above that I can afford while I'm still schooling:
- AF 85mm f/1.8D (and this will take me the whole of next year to save up; but it's another great potraiture lens!)

Of course, I could go for the DX lenses, but neh, their performance ain't that great. Well, there's 2 years of NS to save up for, and who knows, maybe Nikon might release something even crazier, like AF-S VR 24-70mm f/2.8G IF-ED. Now that would be sweet.

Friday, 21 November 2008


It's a privilege.

And I'm not gonna use it.

Monday, 17 November 2008


Knowing the harshness of being alone,
Understanding the pain now;
No matter what comes attacking,
You'll be able to bear it without running away.

Everything is tested with time. Time and circumstance will either make or break you.

Sunday, 16 November 2008

Looking Ahead

Looking Ahead
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Joash! Took this last Sunday or 2 Sundays ago, can't recall.

Saturday, 15 November 2008


Just shut up. Seriously.

Thursday, 13 November 2008


It was tiring, but fun.

Don't be afraid of change,
You're just losing sight of your future self.

Monday, 10 November 2008


I'm not looking forward to the next 3 days.

Sunday, 9 November 2008


If you have a dream which you wish would come through,
Then there would have been days you believed that it would come through...
When you're lost, I'm sure that the strength of your feelings will guide you;
The future you wish for is already in your hands...

Saturday, 8 November 2008


Ever wondered what makes true strength?

The strong one with his strength,
Will proclaim "I'm fairly strong."
... ...
A strong heart and a strong wish
With time shall develop into something unrivalled...

Thursday, 6 November 2008

If we had met in a dream...

If we had met in a dream...
By 175R
If we had met in a dream,
What words would I utter when I embrace you?
I won't let anyone interrupt
This midsummer night...

When I close my eyes,
I would see you in my dreams tonight;
I don't feel tired tonight, and even forget that morning is coming.
If we were to meet,
What words would I utter when I embrace you?
I won't let anyone interrupt this slow night...

Dreams, you, reality and me would be
The completion of a deeply emotional novel of my life.
Most of my dreams don't dome true,
Sometimes I'm just stuck deeply in thought.
If I can only have one-third of life,
I would just have to enjoy it and not waste it away.

When I close my eyes,
I would see you in my dreams tonight;
I don't feel tired tonight, and even forget that morning is coming.
If we were to meet,
What words would I utter when I embrace you?
I won't let anyone interrupt this slow night...

Nevertheless, in spite of the difficulties,
My thoughts still reach out to you.
If I can only have two-thirds of life,
I just want to meet you.

Even if it's just this once,
Just tonight give me a dream of you
And I'd surely be able to say goodbye to my once cowardly self.
If we were to ever meet,
What last song will we dance to till morning?
I won't let anyone interrupt this midsummer night...

When I completely awaken from my dream,
It's show time for you & me, together with you, the two of us dancing all night.

When you & me awaken completely...

This is for my friends. I don't know how they put up with me for the past one year, but yeah they did! =D

Wednesday, 5 November 2008



Yes Xiuqing, I'll be less emo next year. =P

Tuesday, 4 November 2008


One more day... Or even less!

I can just smell liberation...

Wednesday, 29 October 2008

School's Out... NOT!

Timetable for the non-existant holidays...

  • 30th October - Chinese A Level Papers @ 8am (Don't remind me why I didn't take my Higher MT paper in Sec 4... DON'T, I'M WARNING YOU!)
  • 3rd November - OP practice in school @ 8am... (8am... T_T)
  • 5th November - Actual OP @ 8am...
  • 6th and 7th November - Possibility of getting called up by MOE to present... AGAIN! (They just love to see us suffer...)
  • 10th - 13th November - Leadership Congress and SLC
So technically, I'm not free till after the 13th of November... Then again with the amount of holiday homework:
  • GP: 2 Comprehension Practices and 6 AssEssay Outlines
  • Econs: Marketisation CSQ and Reasearch-cum-Essay-cum-Presentation
  • Lit: Read P&P, Tempest
  • History: UN Research, SEA questions/answer plans
  • Math: A whole lot of Math questions...
The bold ones are the real killers... 2 research papers is no joke, even though it's done in a group (points at the cursed PW)...

And by end November, I would know if NUS would approve my H3 research paper... If it's approved, I gotta start doing research as well...

I'm kinda thankful to God for enabling me not to attend the Temasek Internship Programme. With the amount of crap homework I have to do, I think if I went for the internship, I wouldn't be able to do any of my work.

Well, at least there's class chalet (I'll be the unofficial official photographer =D) on the 26th and 27th November. And there's church camp to look forward too, 1st to 6th December! (Yeah, I'd be uncontactable then, so don't miss me or anything!) Rest assured that I will come back with photos, a lot of them. =D

No wonder my Civics Tutor said that your holidays are only when you're 6 feet under...

Tuesday, 28 October 2008

Solus Christus!

Solus Christus
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

"Solus Christus!" means "Christ Alone!"

This was one of the 5 reformation slogans during the 16th Century Reformation movement. It began on the 31st of October, 1517, when Martin Luther pinned his 95 Theses onto the doors of the Roman Catholic church in Wittenburg, Germany. Luther's 95 Theses pointed out the heresies and errors of the Roman Catholic practices, and this sparked off a wave a reformist movements in the 16th Century.

Now, every last Sunday of October, Lutheran churches will celebrate the Reformation movement, and this day has come to be known as Reformation Sunday.

This year, my church (Gethsemane Bible-Presbyterian Church) celebrated Reformation Sunday with a Reformation Cantata, entitled "Solus Christus".

The 5 Slogans:
- Sola Scriptura: Scripture Alone
- Sola Gratia: Grace Alone
- Sola Fide: Faith Alone
- Solus Christus: Christ Alone
- Soli Deo Gloria: Glory to God Alone

Monday, 27 October 2008

Why I got into Night Photography

Why I got into Night Photography

To begin, let me just define ‘night photography’. Basically, the general consensus to night photography is that the photographs are taken between dusk and dawn. Basically it means that when people are asleep, you’re awake like some weird nocturnal creature. I dare say that night photography is probably one of the least ventured into areas of photography. Often you hear people claim that they are ‘nature photographers’, ‘wedding photographers’ or ‘street photographers’, but it’s hard to find someone who actually claims to be a ‘night photographer’ (by the way, ‘hard to find’ does not equate to ‘zero’). People often pack their camera gear after sunset and head home for dinner, in turn neglecting what the night can offer.

Nonetheless, there is growing attention given to night photography lately, and many are beginning to venture into night photography. The reason for this growing trend? The birth of the modern day Digital Single Lens Reflex (aka DSLR) cameras; going digital means you can afford to keep retaking your shots without wasting film, and deleting all your ‘failed’ attempts on the spot. Thank God for modernisation! It seems that going digital makes people more willing to try new stuff out, so modernisation is good! (Stop being a Luddite!)

I believe that the perception of people towards night photography is that night photography requires much skill and is very difficult. As in any form of photography, skill is a necessity, unless you’re just a ‘point-and-shoot’ kind of person, but that is beside the point. Nonetheless, I dare claim that night photography is in fact one of the easiest form of photography, that is after you get the hang of it. Usually, your subject would have the same amount of light (i.e. the lighting conditions for your subject does not vary greatly). This basically means that when you don’t like the photographs from one of your shoots, you could always head back down to that same location, and chances are that the lighting conditions would be the same. Having that same amount of lighting for your subject would thus allow you to keep re-shooting the subject.

If you’re shooting in the city, chances are that the lights will make the place look like day, but your lighting conditions would remain somewhat similar. For example, if you’re shooting a skyscraper, and you’re unhappy with the shot, you could always take your time and change your camera settings to get your ideal shot. When you’re at home doing post processing, and you still can’t find any photographs that you like, you can still head down to the same skyscraper and take it again. I mean it’s almost impossible for the entire skyscraper to be relit in a different colour, unless the government seeks to like remodel and relight the whole city or something.

However, lighting conditions do change when you consider shooting nature photographs in the middle of the night. Nature photography at night is dependent on the brightness of the moon, or whether the moon is present at all in the first place, the presence of clouds, the weather conditions etc. I mean the sky at 8pm is very different at 1am. Don’t believe me? Stay up late one night and take pictures of the sky at that time. Don’t want to stay up at night? Then you can’t be a night photographer. (It’s obvious why you can’t be a night photographer if you are not willing to stay up late right?)

Now on to the real stuff, what really got me into night photography? I think night photography is the most interesting form of photography; at least it is true in my reality. (I wouldn’t really care about other people’s reality would I?) Night photography offers one key effect: seeing things in a different light, literally. Often, if not always, things that you see in the morning or in the afternoon, would turn out drastically different than when you see them at night. It is the night that brings out the true nature of creatures, revealing the werewolves amongst the humans. (Wait, this doesn’t make sense here.) What I mean is that in night photography, the contrast between ‘dark’ and ‘light’, ‘dull’ and ‘bright’, ‘evil’ and ‘good’ (wait, not this one either) is strongly presented. The brighter areas are emphasized in night photography, but the shadows are also much stronger in night photographs as well. What night photography does is that it effectively brings out obvious contrasts, which are less obvious in most other forms of photography. (Note again that I’m not discounting the contrast that other forms of photography entail, but what I’m saying is that contrast is brought out most strongly in night photographs. Then again, this is my opinion, that’s why the title is ‘Why I got into Night Photography’ and not ‘Why Other People got into Night Photography’.)

Besides seeing things in a different light, night photography enables the photographer to play god. Then again, other forms of photography also allow the photographer to play god, so what is so special and unique about night photography? Simple, artificial lighting. This would be the only form of photography where the photographer has control over all sorts of weird lighting and effects. What I mean here, is that the photographer has the ability to create (literally) different effects with lights. Ever heard of light painting? Basically the photographer ‘paints’ light for the photograph, and creates certain effects that can only be captured in the dark. (Of course, you can establish similar effects with a studio, turn off all the lights and ALAKAZAM, you have a dark room. But that isn’t really fun isn’t it?)

I think a most beautiful thing about night photography is the beauty that the night offers. The night is often associated with images of coldness, emptiness, and lifelessness. Those are extreme words in my opinion. What the night offers is serenity and calmness, very much different from the hustle and bustle of the afternoon. What night photography does, is that it captures this stillness in a succinct manner, and makes the ‘lifeless’ night become very much alive. (This is with respect to nature photography in the night.) Of course, if you’re doing photography in the city, that’s a different scenario, cause ‘the city never sleeps’. Like seriously, it’s all bright at night in the city, so it’s not really still. So what’s there to shoot in the city at night? Like I mentioned above, night photography in the city is to capture the pretty neon lights and artificial lights.

But like any form of photography, there are night photographs that have been ‘shot to death’. So, what to do when the scene has been ‘shot to death’? I think this is where all hardcore photographers will know what I’m going to say, find a different angle, a different perspective to shoot your subject. Focus on the minute details, such as the weird looking gate, the crack in the wall a corner of the window etc. Don’t always go for THAT wide angle shot whereby every single other photographer on earth has probably taken that picture as well. Like in any form of photography, night photography is about art and expression. What the photographer seeks to do, is to record a mere story of the scene.

As a closing note, here’s an article by Steve Harper with regards to night photography ( After reading this essay, if you feel like grabbing your tripod and camera and going out at 2am to photograph the night life by all means go and explore the night! People often say ‘seeing is believing’; so similarly, you got to go experience shooting in the night to understand what joy it gives!

Saturday, 25 October 2008

Zion Nights

Well, this place was named Zion by Samuel. We (Sam, Sonia and myself) went to shoot yesterday afternoon/evening. I'm not a big-time fan of nature photography, but I really needed to destress from school crap. Shooting always helps to destress. =D

This was taken about 15 mins after the sun set if my memory doesn't fail me.

Thursday, 23 October 2008


Well well well, since I have no photos, I shall just say how stuff in life is coming along...

1. PW sucks. Well, it sucked then, and it still sucks now. So no difference actually.
2. Waiting for H3 appeal results. ALL WILL BE REVEALED TOMORROW! (I hope?)
3. I'm having fun with my camera *as usual*, so not much difference here either.
4. I have a headache for 2 straight days. ARGH! Yes, it's still hurting.
5. Chinese A Levels are around the corner, 1 week! 1 more week, and Chinese would be like the dinosaurs, burried 10,000 ft under the ground! Do note that I don't take geography, and the value of '10,000 ft' is completely made up. So don't quote me. Yes, DON'T QUOTE ME!

LASTLY, I'm typing an essay on 'Why I got into Night Photography,' so stay tuned for that. Yes, I'll blog it here. No, I'm not gonna publish a book. No, it's not tips on night photography, it's what made me interested in night photography. Look, stop asking and just wait patiently for me to complete my writing! Sheesh, people these days, no patience at all!

Friday, 17 October 2008

Night Photography Checklist

Checklist... (i.e. my plans for the holidays, if they ever exist...)

1. CBD Area

  • Esplanade
  • Old Supreme Court
  • Singapore River
2. Bedok Reservoir
3. Changi Boardwalk
4. Singapore EXPO carpark
5. Botanic Gardens
6. Fort Canning Park... maybe?
7. Pulau Ubin... maybe?

Of course, there are some places near my home which I plan to shoot.

EDIT: Yeah, added Singapore EXPO Carpark. If you're wondering why that carpark, it's because I want an empty and open carpark to shoot at night. The carparks near my home are ALWAYS filled, but I want a shot with an empty feel. Whereas the one at EXPO is always... empty...

Tuesday, 14 October 2008

On an MRT

While the title seems to suggest that something really cool happened on an MRT (you know, those kind of crappy stuff like not giving way to pregnant women that goes onto STOMP!), it's a totally fake title. It's just me and another of my poems again.

Broken Chords
For me, today was sad,
The experiences that I had,
But I know that tomorrow I would be glad.

The thing I most dread
Has occured and I've gone mad,
For me, today was sad.

The life which I once had
Was suddenly in lack.
But I know that tomorrow I would be glad.

I talk to the dead
Thinking it's life instead
For me, today was sad.

Though dejected and oppressed
And feeling unduly stressed
But I know that tomorrow I would be glad.

Relations are like broken chords, disrupted;
But they need to be mended,
For me, today was sad,
But I know that tomorrow I would be glad.

National Museum

National Museum
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Flickr updated! Another night outing I went for.

Thursday, 9 October 2008

Ah-ah Ultra Hero!

Believe ~Don't Give Up!~
The light of hope from the ends of the galaxy,
Searches for the yet unseen future,
And it's always beside you.

Stronger and stronger, Let's Go Fight!
Let us higher and higher fly!
To not give in to opposing winds,
That is our vow.

The present is not all there is,
The pain will transform into the power of love.

Let us believe without feeling lost,
That our courage will fulfill our wishes;
Continuing without end,
Searching for the yet unseen future
Ah-ah Ultra Hero!

Kinder and kinder, so kind;
More and more, the blue sky;
Who do you want to be with
In this new era?

You are not alone,
The sadness will transform into the power of love.

Open the doors of our hearts in the face of approaching fear
For we have friends;
Continuing endlessly,
We aim for a distant future
Ah-ah Ultra Hero!

The present is not all there is,
The pain will transform into the power of love.

Let us believe without feeling lost,
That our courage will fulfill our wishes;
Continuing without end,
Searching for the yet unseen future
Ah-ah Ultra Hero!

Open the doors of our hearts in the face of approaching fear
For we have friends;
Continuing endlessly,
We aim for a distant future
Ah-ah Ultra Hero!

*This was the ending theme for the Ultraman Mebius movie in 2006.

Sunday, 5 October 2008


It's the thing that I need most at the moment...

1. Money for Photography books...
2. Money to pay my parents for the tripod and cable release...
3. Money for 50mm f/1.8 lens...
4. Money to get a Sigma 24-70mm lens... (next year that is...)

Anyone who would like to make a kind donation? Please? =D

Wednesday, 1 October 2008


Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Well, I got bored. So I grabbed my tripod and camera and went down for a walk...

Took a few photos, but didn't really like some of them. So that's why this is the only upload.

Plan to go down to CBD area at night some time soon. And maybe Bedok Reservoir and Boardwalk (Changi).

Tuesday, 30 September 2008



I hate PW.

Monday, 29 September 2008

One more....

Seriously. The wait is killing me... One more paper...............

Sunday, 28 September 2008

Literature Revision

I was reading through Fall of the House of Usher...

Stuff describing Usher:

  • "his ordinary manner had vanished"
  • "unceasingly agitated mind"
  • "an evidently restrained hysteria in his whole demeanour"
  • "a sickly smile quivered about his lips"

No wonder some of my friends called me Usher. That's... disturbing...


Othello Revision; Main themes in Othello
  • Appearance and Reality
  • Male Honour & Military Code
  • Jealousy
  • Male Patriachy
I'm only gonna do the essay question, unless the context is like super easy... ZZZ...

Friday, 26 September 2008


2 more to go... Literature and History (Southeast Asia)...


On a side note,

Thursday, 25 September 2008

EXAM システム!

EXAMS are terrible I tell you! They suck the life from you!

I'm gonna bed now. Super sleepy. When I wake up, it's gonna be Math intensive... And gonna get started on History P2 and/or Lit as well. *Higher probability of 'OR' though*

I need more time!

EXAM システム! 発動!

Wednesday, 24 September 2008

Me is going insanes

YARS, za posts' titlez tellz it allz..................... Going inzanes.......

Monday, 22 September 2008

Camera Equipment

I'm thinking in my head right now... Should I get more camera equipment?

- AF 50mm f/1.8D
- AF-S NIKKOR 14-24mm f/2.8G ED
- AF-S NIKKOR 24-70mm f/2.8G ED

- I have no money. At best by the end of the year, I can only afford the AF 50mm f/1.8D and cable release.
- I have my reservations regarding the AF 50mm f/1.8D. Nikon will be releasing a AF-S 50mm f/1.4G at the end of this year or early next year.
- AF-S 14-24mm f/2.8G ED and AF-S 24-70mm f/2.8G ED: Two REALLY expensive lenses. If I were to get them, I'd probably have to save up over NS or something.

Yippee! Bought the tripod and cable release. =D


What I wanted was a yesterday,
But all I had was a today,
What I really need is a tomorrow.

Please don't stop the tracks of time.

-Why doesn't anyone understand?-

Sunday, 21 September 2008

Being Emo - My Twin

Being Emo - My Twin
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Yes, I have a twin. Your eyes are not deceiving you!

And yes, both of us are emo...

*100th Post!


I can't hear your answer!

That's how I feel right now...

Friday, 19 September 2008


Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

How everything looks to me right now...

I'm going insane over the promotional exams. And Geopolitics sounds fun. Maybe I should try for it.

Monday, 15 September 2008

Full Moon

Full Moon
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Second post with regards to night photography.

Now back to the mugging table.

Sunday, 14 September 2008

Neglected Stairs

Neglected Stairs
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Well, first of the few night photos. More to come, stay tuned!

Off to mug for promos! Ta~!

Monday, 8 September 2008


Well, if you remembered the post on Fireworks!, you would remember me mentioning that I have a second reason for shooting the fireworks. The main aim for me going out to shoot fireworks was to actually seek locations in the city area to shoot the night scenes in Singapore.

Yes, I'm officially, or unofficially, announcing my plans - I want to embark on a journey of night photography. The night life (no not the kind along red-light districts) holds many secrets and thrills. This would be in line with the photography experience - photography is not about the photo, but rather HOW you get the photo you want.

I'm gonna start in the holidays (i.e. November and December), so until now, people who bother about me, wait patiently.

Saturday, 6 September 2008


Well, so yesterday was Sonia's birthday, and yeah I did have fun. But that aside, Samuel asked me a very... thought-provoking question: "Have you ever considered yourself to be human?" I merely laughed.

Well, the truth is, this question has always been in my head. Or rather, a similar question: What makes a human human? Is it race? Religion? The 'human' body? The 'human' mind? The will to live? The ability to adapt? The ability to love? The ability to hate? The ability to think? The soul? The conscience? What actually makes up a human, scientifically speaking? Science cannot explain the soul and the conscience within each and every one of us. So from a scientific aspect, what defines us as humans? Are we really smarter than other animals in the animal kingdom? Are there really differences between animals and humans? Look at our inner beasts; the number of rapists, murderers, liars, thieves in the world, are not humans worse than beasts at times? The killing instinct, the survival of the fittest in the animal kingdom, are these not present in the human world as well?

Humans are probably the most despicable things ever seen on the face of the earth. This statement, in both the physical and spiritual aspects of life, stands true. Physically and scientifically, 'evil' would be the nuclear bomb, mercy killing etc. Spiritually speaking, it would be everything and anything that we do. The human heart is pure evil, undeniably. Every first intention of the heart and the mind would be entertaining evil.

Another question, what is life? What defines life? What is life from a scientific aspect? Is it the thought of tomorrow? The sense of pain? The sense of pleasure? The emotions you feel? The thoughts you entertain? What really is life? Truthfully, life is defined by death. Everything is born to die, be it human or beast. Death is the only reality, while life is just a figment of your imagination. What does it really mean to be alive? In all sincerity, to be alive means to accept your imminent death. Another question, what is truth? Everyone puts on different masks in front of their friends, families, and society. What is 'the truth'? What makes up 'truth'? It would be the lies that makes up the reality.

Okay, enough ranting.

Monday, 1 September 2008

Food for Thought

Some food for thought:

  • "Everyone lies according to circumstances. Everyone shows different faces to their families, their friends, and society. But is that really a sin? What is a 'true' face?"
  • "You have to push away what you truly treasure."
  • "The further you are from the truth, the more protected you are."
  • "If you want results, you have to do something. And that method would lead to denying something else."
  • "Why do people lie? It's because they have a purpose."
  • "Enforcing kindness onto people; it's no different from evil."
  • "Good will and ill will are ultimately the two sides of the same card."

Tuesday, 26 August 2008


As the title goes:

I totally owned someone in school today! And I feel that I have just conquered Everest in the course of it!

Sunday, 24 August 2008


Well well, it was the Singapore Fireworks Festival on 22nd and 23rd August 2008. So I decided to ask the whole photog club whether they wanted to go to shoot fireworks... And only 2 went with me (i.e. Beiyi and Sonia)... =(

Anyways, a little about the Festival. It's held around this period in August (since 2004) in conjuction with the National Day celebrations of Singapore (9th August). Every year, Singapore would get 2 foreign countries to set up their fireworks displays. This year, the 2 countries were France (22nd Aug) and South Korea (23rd Aug). The French display was called 'French Romance', while the South Korean display was called 'Korean Fantasia'.

Nonetheless, I would like to point out how 'deprived' we as Singaporeans are. Just look at the sheer crowd at Marina Bay with cameras to snap fireworks! I mean it's just fireworks, other than the fact that you can rarely see them in Singapore... I thought I heard a foreigner comment 'Wow, nice fireworks! But why are there so many people gathered just to watch?'

Now you might be wondering 'So why did YOU bother to go and shoot fireworks?' Firstly, it's because I missed the fireworks from National Day, and I had always wanted to try shooting fireworks. So it's a first try. I have a second reason, but I would only share later.

Now. Fireworks!

*Note: This is the French display. I couldn't go down for the South Korean display.

Monday, 18 August 2008


ARGH! I am like falling sick alot recently. Zzz... I need more sleep... (then why am I blogging instead of sleeping!?)

Well, life seems to be rather on track now...

I hope at least...

Saturday, 16 August 2008


Well, posting from TMUN and from the really cool "Blogger Buddy" gadget. Well, let's just say that I'm sleepy, cause Saturday is the only time I can wake up late, but TMUN forced me to wake up early =(

But anyways, TMUN is quite fun. It's quite interesting to see how some people's views on world issues. HAHAHAHAHA

Monday, 11 August 2008

How Bad Can Life Get?

To do list (not in order of priority):
1. Photog Stuff (printing of order forms)
2. History P1 Revision
3. History P2 Revision
4. Econs Revision (from the start of year till now)
5. Literature (Othello & Poe)
6. Math (Differentiation and Integration especially)
7. 30th August Youth Outing
8. TMUN Research
9. Go shoot with my camera
10. Do the above 9 things.

With 42 days to the exams, I really should be starting on revision, but I can't even make time to even read anything...

Saturday, 2 August 2008

If your life was a movie, what would your soundtrack be?

Here’s how it works:

1) Open your music library
2) Play it on shuffle mode
3) For every question, type out the song that’s playing.
4) New question, click next.
5) Don’t lie.

*Again, I'm using some Japanese songs (and songs of other languages too), so translated version of the song will be in "[...]"

Opening Credits: Yochou (Wada Kaoru) [Omen]
- That is disturbing... ominous foreboding to the entire movie, or rather to my life... T_T

Waking Up: Kimi to Boku, Todokanu Omoi (Toshihiko Sahashi) [You and I, Unfulfilled Dreams]
- Hmmm, I will have loads of unfulfilled desires in life?

When I’m stuck: CONTROL (Kenji Kawai)
- I'm still in control of my life! That's good I guess.

First Day of school: BEATING (Kenji Kawai)
- Either I'll kill someone or I'll get killed. Not very helpful...

Fight Song: Gou'ing! Going! My Soul! (Dynamite SHU)
- Well, this makes some sense.

Breaking up: Believe~Akiramenaide (KIYOSHI) [Believe~ Don't Give Up]
- Believe in the "power of our friendship" (quote from song)!

Prom: Life Goes On (Mika Arisaka)
- How apt. We should move on with life though we are about to depart.

Exercising: Yuuki wo Tsubasa ni Shite (Fujita Toshiko) [With Courage as Wings)
- That's... cheesy...

When Life’s OK: RECOVER (Kenji Kawai)
- What's there to recover from when life's ok?

Graduation Day: Rhapsody (Kubota Osamu)
- It'll be a high and ecstatic event!

A Level Results: Beyond Hope (S.F.A)
- This goes 2 ways: (1)My A Levels goes beyond my expectations, (2)My results are so pathetic that anything I hope for in life is just...

Cooking: Believe (Nami Tamaki)
- I believe I won't burn down my house?

Mental breakdown: Omoide no naka ni (Wada Kaoru) [Within the Memories]
- Umm, I'll spiral down into deeper depression cause I keep dwelling on the sad memories?

Driving: UPROAR (Kenji Kawai)
- I'll cause an uproar on the streets! LOL!

Flashback: Agujero Inmundo (S.F.A) [This is Spanish, and it means: 'Impure Hole']
- o.O no idea... I'm an impure person? NOT! =P

Getting Back Together: Shizukana Yoruni (Rie Tanaka) [In the Quiet Night]
- We will get back together under the quiet night, so romantic!

Wedding: HOLIDAY (Kenji Kawai)
- I'll go on a honeymoon after that!

Birth Of A Child: Reflection (Araki Kae)
- The child will look just like me! =D

Final Battle: Futatabi Tatakai he (Wada Kaoru) [To Fight Again]
- How ironic. It probably means that there will be a sequel to the movie and my nemesis will return to haunt me.

Death Scene: Love Today (Taja)
- I'll only see my true love in death?!!?

Funeral Song: I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing (Aerosmith)
- This is encouraging. People won't miss me =D

End Credits: Primal Innocence (Suzumura Ken'ichi)
- I lead an innocent life. =D

Tuesday, 29 July 2008


DISCLAIMER: This post could sound cheesy, REALLY cheesy. I mean the title tells it all, and I haven't actually came up with such a cheesy title. BUT YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

Well, the reason for me posting this is just to thank people who are concerned for me. Yeah, my life feels like crap now, and I find no joy in doing anything at all. Nothing seems to lift my spirits, and I feel like sinking 6-feet under. I feel like Usher right now, oscillating between the 2 poles of sanity and insanity. (OK, maybe between insanity and madness. Mild insanity and deep insanity. Whichever way you wanna choose.)

But that aside, people have been real nice and concerned about me, but I'm like just feeling depressed and sad for no reason. I am reminded of Don John from "Much Ado About Nothing" at this point in time - I am sad for no reason. I'm like really thankful for the friends around me who care and ask if I'm alright, but me laughing like some mad lunatic doesn't really answer the question (OK, maybe it does). But you guys know what I mean.

Nope, no emo poem this time. Too tired, need my rest.

Friday, 25 July 2008

The Coffee Paradox

Before we explore 'The Coffee Paradox', we have to explore and define the meanings to the words 'Coffee' and 'Paradox'.

Definitions from d*********.com
Coffee (cof·fee) noun - a beverage consisting of a decoction or infusion of the roasted ground or crushed seeds (coffee beans) of the two-seeded fruit (coffee berry) of certain coffee trees.

Paradox (par·a·dox) noun -
a statement or proposition that seems self-contradictory or absurd but in reality expresses a possible truth
2. a self-contradictory and false proposition
3. any person, thing, or situation exhibiting an apparently contradictory nature
4. an opinion or statement contrary to commonly accepted opinion

Definitions according to the great me:
Coffee noun - a beverage that boosts the brain power ridiculously, but has a drastic after-effect, making one look like a drunkard; contrary to popular belief, it doesn't keep me awake

Since my definition for paradox is closely similar to d*********.com, just refer to above.

Now, why a 'Coffee Paradox'?

Coffee, for most people serves to keep one awake. The drinking of coffee is especially commonplace when one is mugging for the final year examinations or any other important test. Nonetheless, coffee does not serve to keep me awake, and thus many render coffee useless for me. But I would like to remind one that I DO NOT drink coffee for the sake of keeping awake, but for the bitterness and smell of it, so it does serve its purpose for me.

Now why paradox? It's simply because while coffee is supposed to keep one awake, it ironically makes me feel like sleeping. Why is this so? It is simply because coffee helps my brain (YES, I do have one) to work at it's optimum level. However, it does have its side effects - extreme insanity, overly heightened senses, and tiredness of the body. Too little coffee will drive me into insanity, while too much coffee will make my brain work real well but in turn making me feel real tired after 3 hours. I need the right amount of coffee so that I won't get knocked out fast, and to also maintain some level of sanity - a regular cup of coffee at most coffee stands would do the trick. And how I know? The other day I drank a small and I went into an epileptic frenzy (2 people can testify to that), and today I drank a large and I could actually complete more work in the same amount of time (the amount of work I managed to complete testifies to that).

The conclusion - never order a large cause of the coffee rush, never order small cause there's too little of it - order s regular and it will make your day!

*On a side note, coffee of all proportions would also drive me crazy, and that would probably explain why I came up with such a random post. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Thursday, 24 July 2008

The Stupidity of E-Learning

You know how stupid is E-Learning?

It's real STUPID. Simple. No word can describe it, cause any other word would not bring across the simple truth of the dumbness of it all.

E-Learning = waste of time

Sunday, 20 July 2008


I have a rash outbreak (better known as allergic reaction or hives) all over my body! It's so irritating cause it itches like mad! It must be some crappy dinner I ate yesterday that caused it! Also, yesterday (19th July) was the first time I went to a doctor's in nearly 2 years. How do I know? Cause when I visited the polyclinic, they had my old address in their database, and I shifted house nearly 2 years ago! So by simple deduction, I haven't gone to a polyclinic in years... Thus this proves one thing - JC life is stressing me out and my body can't take it. I mean in just term 2 alone I felt sick TWICE, when I didn't even fall sick in secondary school!

And I quote Darryl - “Too damn tired” should be considered a ailment which GPs issue Medical Certificates for.
It's because of school life and the need to continuously think that forces me to drink coffee! Coffee is an essential energy source for the brain, or at least for me it is. Or maybe it's the sugar in it, cause sugar is an essential energy source. Man, I so need a break from school; thank God for E-learning week!

I also came up with a theory that would explain the rash - I have been drinking too little coffee lately! I think maybe cause I drink so much coffee on a regular basis and I suddenly decided to cut down, my entire body can't take the stress that school life gives and breaks down! (Yes, I am a coffee addict. Now without coffee, I walk like some drunkard and laugh like a lunatic! LOL! *Sonia can testify to that.)

Ok, gonna sleep now. The itch is irritating me.

Wednesday, 16 July 2008


Yes, sighs. I'm so tired of school life. I mean next week is supposed to be e-learning week, and I have to wake up early because of PDP commitments (aka Staff Phototaking...). I'm like tired of thinking about PW, I'm tired of thinking about anything related to school. I just wished that time would stop for me and I could actually concentrate on something that I like. ARGH!!! I mean why does everything spin past me so quickly, and there's like no time for me to start revision for promos! I'm so gonna draw up a timetable for the next week (aka E-learning week) and subsequent weeks in order to complete my revision before the end of year promos.

This is one of the days when you really hope that time will just stop spinning, and your heart would stop beating, and your body will stop breathing, and you will just turn cold and freeze in time...


I need a hug. =(

Monday, 14 July 2008

I'm tired.

I'm tired -
Of this hectic schedule.
What is the point of going to school?

I'm tired -
Of this fast-pace.
Why must things proceed so quickly?

I'm tired -
Of these tumultuous times.
Why is my life so troubling?

I'm tired -
Of this very life.
Oh how I wish to sleep and never be awakened!

Sunday, 13 July 2008


Firstly, I would like to say that the whole idea of 'Strengthsquest' is... dumb. I mean it's a quiz to find out more about your strengths, which can be real silly at times. I mean I predicted what kind of results I would get before I set for the test, and out of the 5 results that were tabulated (by an AI if i may add), I predicted 4 spot-on! (Surprise surprise! I alreadyknow enough about myself that I hate to take this kind of tests. If not for the fact that it's a 'school-assignment', I wouldn't be bothered about 'Know-Yourself' tests.)

Now, test results.

Context - something I predicted
"You look back. You look back because that is where the answers lie. You look back to understand the present. ... The earlier time was a simpler time. It was a time of blueprints. As you look back, you begin to see these blueprints emerge. You realize what the initial intentions were. ... No longer disoriented, you make better decisions because you sense the underlying structure. You become a better partner because you understand how your colleagues came to be who they are. And counterintuitively you become wiser about the future because you saw its seeds being sown in the past."

Strategic - predicted this too...
"The Strategic theme enables you to sort through the clutter and find the best route. It is not a skill that can be taught. It is a distinct way of thinking, a special perspective on the world at large. This perspective allows you to see patterns where others simply see complexity. Mindful of these patterns, you play out alternative scenarios, always asking, “What if this happened? Okay, well what if this happened?” This recurring question helps you see around the next corner. There you can evaluate accurately the potential obstacles. Guided by where you see each path leading, you start to make selections. You discard the paths that lead nowhere. You discard the paths that lead straight into resistance. You discard the paths that lead into a fog of confusion. You cull and make selections until you arrive at the chosen path—your strategy. Armed with your strategy, you strike forward. This is your Strategic theme at work: “What if?” Select. Strike."

Analytical - predicted this as well...
"... you do insist that their (your friends') theories be sound. You see yourself as objective ... You like data because they are value free. They have no agenda. Armed with these data, you search for patterns and connections. You want to understand how certain patterns affect one another. How do they combine? What is their outcome? Does this outcome fit with the theory being offered or the situation being confronted? These are your questions. You peel the layers back until, gradually, the root cause or causes are revealed. Others see you as logical and rigorous."

Connectedness - another one I predicted...
Things happen for a reason. You are sure of it. ... This feeling of Connectedness implies certain responsibilities. ... Your awareness of these responsibilities creates your value system. You are considerate, caring, and accepting. ... Sensitive to the invisible hand, you can give others comfort that there is a purpose beyond our humdrum lives. The exact articles of your faith will depend on your upbringing and your culture, but your faith is strong. It sustains you and your close friends in the face of life’s mysteries."

Input - the only one I didn't predict correctly, but still describes me...
"You are inquisitive. You collect things. You might collect information ...Whatever you collect, you collect it because it interests you. And yours is the kind of mind that finds so many things interesting. The world is exciting precisely because of its infinite variety and complexity. ... These (information) can be acquired and then stored away. ... So you keep acquiring and compiling and filing stuff away. It’s interesting. It keeps your mind fresh. And perhaps one day some of it will prove valuable."

Conclusion? Strengthsquest = nonsense... ><

Tuesday, 8 July 2008


Well, in life, there are things you always dread. And one of the things I dread most are results. A famous joke/quotation, "It's not the math I hate; but rather the aftermath."

GP - 40/100 I was just shocked. I didn't expect my comprehension to fail so badly. (Well, I passed due to moderation.)
Econs - 34/100 Another major blow. I mean I felt so confident when I stepped out of the exam hall, but ARGH! I mean this was the subject that I spent most of my time in the holidays on, but it's the poorest. (Sub-pass due to moderation.)
Lit - 46/100 Passed.
Hist - 45/100 I passed this one.
Math - 75/100 I aced this one. =P
Chinese - 65/100 I just can't believe that my Chinese could beat so many of my subjects. INCLUDING MY GP!

EDIT: Updated all my scores.

Thanks to those who tried to cheer me up, and sorry that I'm so stuck-up and upset. Xiuqing was like "Stop wallowing in self-pity. It's okay to do that for a while, but you should snap out of it soon. If not, you're pathetic." This is quite true, but well, still feeling so depressed. *sighs* But really, a word of thanks to those who were being so nice to me. So the following poem is for my nice friends.
Thank You,
From the bottom of my heart -
The words you spoke meant a lot to me.
I always thought I could stand alone,
But truth remains - I have to throw off my useless pride;
Even if I put on a courageous facade,
I know that I cannot live alone.

Thank You,
From the bottom of my heart -
Your encouragment is stuck in my head,
It resonates, and I can't get them out.
So I'm gonna run on, till I collapse.
'Don't forget your dream' - even though you didn't know,
This felt like the advice you were telling me.

Thank You,
From the bottom of my heart -
I know that life is a long journey;
I'll drop this burden and walk empty handed,
I'll not forget those that I hold dear as
I walk towards that unseen destination.
Please walk alongside me.

Friday, 4 July 2008

Shattered Pieces

Shattered Pieces
I'll try to pick those pieces from the middle of my chest,
Gathering those shattered pieces of happiness;
A resounding melody started to resound within me,
Lingering, disturbing, no matter how I tried to forget it.

I think I'll forget just about everything that you thought me -
It was useless to recall anything since I had never listened;
On those long nights when my tears start to drop,
I would turn back, and retrace my steps.

I hope to find those shattered pieces
And to repiece them altogether;
But I know it'll never be a complete picture -
Isn't it about time to throw down everything and move on?

During the days and the nights,
I yearn for that love; I swore to protect what I loved -
I'll shoot through the skies and cut a new life.
You and I; we will never meet at crossroads.


Well, I got real bored. So I remembered a quiz from a VERY long time ago, and just decided to do this. Cause everyone I know who did this quiz used mostly English songs, I wondered how this would turn out with Japanese songs. The English translation of the song, if the song is in Japanese, is in brackets"( )".

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 ppl at their tagboard to ask them to do this! > This is the rule I won't bother about lol
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

1.How are you feeling today?
believe ~akiramenaide~ (believe ~don't give up~) - Yeah, I feel dejected. I needa believe in myself and not give up!

2.Will you get far in life?
Wakare no yokan (Premonition of Separation) - I'll be divorced from my future wife? Nah...

3.Will you get married?
UPROAR - Yeah, I'll get married, and it'll cause an uproar!

4.What is your best friend's theme song?
POWER - Oh my, I didn't know my friend was so power seeking!

5.What is the story of your life?
Urutora no Hoshi (The Star of Ultra) - My life is and will be very bright!

6. What was primary school like?
STRATAGEM - Not exactly; I wasn't that of a tactician in the past.

7. How can you get ahead in life?
SCENERY - I'll lead a great life; a beautiful scenery!

8. What is the best thing about your friends?
EVER - They will ever be there! =D

9. What is in store for this weekend?
Break the Chain - Yeah, I'm breaking the chains of school life!

10. What song describes you?
Kiseki! Mebius Infinity (Miracle! Mebius Infinity) - I am like a miracle and appear like Ultraman Mebius when people need help!

11.How is your life going?
SOLITUDE - LOL! Yeah, I'm keeping myself in isolation and being emo! =P

12. What song will they play at your funeral?
Yakusoku no V Sain (The V Sign of Promise) - Yeah, I win everything in life, so the V sign.

13. How does the world see you?
EXPECTATION - Yeah, I have loads of expectations from everyone alright.

14. What do your friends really think of you?
Yasashiku (Gentleness) - Yup, I'm a very gentle and nice friend =P

15. Do people secretly lust after you?
Aizome (Indigo Dye) - Is purple/idigo a colour of lust? If it is, then yeah, people do lust after me LOL.

16. How can I make myself happy?
Eiyuu no Fukkatsu (The Revival of a Hero) - I'll revive myself when I'm feeling down I guess?

17. Will you ever have children?
SEIZURE - Hmm? No idea how I'm gonna tackle this one.

Thursday, 3 July 2008


Yes, it's another emo poem time. I feel sad. =(
An indescribable sadness has led me into dismay -
I saw you again, and you had that same warm smile;
But I couldn't understand why such sadness
Reigns within the deepest regions of my heart.

Why do we have to meet at such a time?
Tears started to swell in my eyes,
And they started to fall drop by drop to that cold hard floor.
The tears had drained all my emotions away.

An indescribable sadness has led me into dismay -
When we parted in different directions, seeking different futures,
There was this void within me,
Created by the lost emotions.

My whole body felt frozen, as the blood had stopped flowing,
Why can you still smile after these years?
Oh the humanity to have no emotions!
The tears had drained all my emotions away.

An indescribable sadness has led me into dismay -
I cried till there were no more tears
How should I move on?
The tears had drained all my emotions away.

Sunday, 29 June 2008

Happy Family! =P

Char Collection
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Some non-gunpla Gundam stuff I got from a nearby store. S$28 ><, but it's kewl =P


Models Cupboard
Originally uploaded by zeta_gundam

Another of my updates. Haha, my cupboard is about to explode if I were to complete all my models. I mean Psycho Gundam and GN Arms would take up a quarter of the whole cupboard. ><

All my Gundam Models!

I decided not to let my Blog rot to death. So here you go, something cool which I took a few days ago.

Friday, 27 June 2008


The smell of liberation! JCTs are over!

Ok, maybe just a wiff of it since there's school.

Friday, 13 June 2008

A Very Important Announcement

This blog is unofficially left to rot in cyberspace. I'm too lazy to blog, and I probably will only blog when I feel extremely emo.

For subsequent photos, please go to:

Wednesday, 4 June 2008

BBQ Outing; 31st May 2008

Well, pictures are finally uploaded! Thank God for the rain, and the calm after the rain. =D

Artistic pics first; i.e. FIRE! =P


People, people, and more people...


These are the pretty normal pics... I mean who don't roast marshmallows in a BBQ?

DISCLAIMER: The following pictures are not to be viewed on an empty stomach, nor on a stuffed stomach.

Yup, burnt marshmallows...


OK, enough of pictures, and off to ranting...

2) My 4th Draft for GPP was rejected... again... *sighs*
3) I have yet to start revision for JCTs!!!

Lastly, and most importantly... I'm considering transferring to Flickr... that would mean I would most probably update less on Photobucket... And that would mean less updates here...

OK, to put things simply, this blog might soon fade into *oblivion*...

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