What I wanted was a yesterday,
But all I had was a today,
What I really need is a tomorrow.

Please don't stop the tracks of time.

-Why doesn't anyone understand?-

Uttered by Matt at 5:33 pm 0 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Quirks of Life, Random

Tired
I'm tired -
Of this hectic schedule.
What is the point of going to school?

I'm tired -
Of this fast-pace.
Why must things proceed so quickly?

I'm tired -
Of these tumultuous times.
Why is my life so troubling?

I'm tired -
Of this very life.
Oh how I wish to sleep and never be awakened!

Uttered by Matt at 8:03 pm 0 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Quirks of Life

Well, in life, there are things you always dread. And one of the things I dread most are results. A famous joke/quotation, "It's not the math I hate; but rather the aftermath."

Results:
GP - 40/100 I was just shocked. I didn't expect my comprehension to fail so badly. (Well, I passed due to moderation.)
Econs - 34/100 Another major blow. I mean I felt so confident when I stepped out of the exam hall, but ARGH! I mean this was the subject that I spent most of my time in the holidays on, but it's the poorest. (Sub-pass due to moderation.)
Lit - 46/100 Passed.
Hist - 45/100 I passed this one.
Math - 75/100 I aced this one. =P
Chinese - 65/100 I just can't believe that my Chinese could beat so many of my subjects. INCLUDING MY GP!

EDIT: Updated all my scores.

Thanks to those who tried to cheer me up, and sorry that I'm so stuck-up and upset. Xiuqing was like "Stop wallowing in self-pity. It's okay to do that for a while, but you should snap out of it soon. If not, you're pathetic." This is quite true, but well, still feeling so depressed. *sighs* But really, a word of thanks to those who were being so nice to me. So the following poem is for my nice friends.
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Friends
Thank You,
From the bottom of my heart -
The words you spoke meant a lot to me.
I always thought I could stand alone,
But truth remains - I have to throw off my useless pride;
Even if I put on a courageous facade,
I know that I cannot live alone.

Thank You,
From the bottom of my heart -
Your encouragment is stuck in my head,
It resonates, and I can't get them out.
So I'm gonna run on, till I collapse.
'Don't forget your dream' - even though you didn't know,
This felt like the advice you were telling me.

Thank You,
From the bottom of my heart -
I know that life is a long journey;
I'll drop this burden and walk empty handed,
I'll not forget those that I hold dear as
I walk towards that unseen destination.
Please walk alongside me.

Uttered by Matt at 4:41 pm 0 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Quirks of Life

Shattered Pieces
I'll try to pick those pieces from the middle of my chest,
Gathering those shattered pieces of happiness;
A resounding melody started to resound within me,
Lingering, disturbing, no matter how I tried to forget it.

I think I'll forget just about everything that you thought me -
It was useless to recall anything since I had never listened;
On those long nights when my tears start to drop,
I would turn back, and retrace my steps.

I hope to find those shattered pieces
And to repiece them altogether;
But I know it'll never be a complete picture -
Isn't it about time to throw down everything and move on?

During the days and the nights,
I yearn for that love; I swore to protect what I loved -
I'll shoot through the skies and cut a new life.
You and I; we will never meet at crossroads.

Uttered by Matt at 10:27 pm 0 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Quirks of Life

Yes, it's another emo poem time. I feel sad. =(
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Tears
An indescribable sadness has led me into dismay -
I saw you again, and you had that same warm smile;
But I couldn't understand why such sadness
Reigns within the deepest regions of my heart.

Why do we have to meet at such a time?
Tears started to swell in my eyes,
And they started to fall drop by drop to that cold hard floor.
The tears had drained all my emotions away.

An indescribable sadness has led me into dismay -
When we parted in different directions, seeking different futures,
There was this void within me,
Created by the lost emotions.

My whole body felt frozen, as the blood had stopped flowing,
Why can you still smile after these years?
Oh the humanity to have no emotions!
The tears had drained all my emotions away.

An indescribable sadness has led me into dismay -
I cried till there were no more tears
How should I move on?
The tears had drained all my emotions away.

Uttered by Matt at 8:54 pm 1 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Quirks of Life

Worries
In this world, there are countless worries
No one is spared from this torment -
There will always be something you're worried over,
Someone whom you're worried for.

Even if you try and hide your worries,
They still remain there.
You'll always be bound by
These chains of worries and anxieties.

In this world, there are countless worries
That can never be resolved.
But are not these worries the result of your mind?
Being worried is part of life.

It is what makes us humans.

Uttered by Matt at 7:45 pm 0 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Quirks of Life

I'm back. At long last.... Well, I went to Comics Connection at White Sands yesterday and guess what? Discount on Gunpla! WOOT! I mean I still have 4 unbuilt Gunpla models but a discount is rare =P


I bought these guys at $20 each. I save about $10 on both. =P


I bought this one at $15, saving me around $8~9...

So, all in all, I saved close to $30. =P And that brings my total unbuilt gunpla count to 7... Yes, I have yet to build my Graham's Union Flag... zzz....
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Anyways, time to say something nonsensical:

My thoughts soared up
Into the desolate night sky and shattered -
Like falling glass,
It pierces my heart.

THIS HAS UTTERLY NO LINK WITH MODELING KITS...

Uttered by Matt at 4:26 pm 0 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Modeling Kits, Quirks of Life

I'm in a dilemma now... I have to make my selection of schools within 2 days... I always thought that I was decided to go to a Polytechnic and study CG or 3D animation, but it looks like I have to rethink this.

My dad spoke to like dunno how many people, and EVERY SINGLE ONE of those he spoke to thinks I should go to a JC and pursue my studies there instead. They all think I have potential and a person of my caliber should be in a JC, or else it's a waste of my abilities. Honestly, I have no idea where to go now.

Questions
The sound of footsteps echo in the hallways whilst class is in session;
The sound of the ceaseless rain follows.

In such uncertainty, I wonder if we can leave behind everyone's thoughts somewhere;
I wonder how far we will go to protect a single thought.

The ceaseless voices of people are like waves,
Never ending and rather disturbing.

The present continues into the future,
I think...
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To add on, I've to get the uniforms for the Sec 1s. I have to do out a consent form, and I'm hoping my senior can get a soft copy of the old consent form for me. I also have to finish up their target test, another thing which takes up much time as well.

God, I need Thy strength. "God gives wings, as eagles... and strength to rise above..."

Uttered by Matt at 8:22 pm 0 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Quirks of Life

Tomorrow is D-day. As of the time I typed this, I'm 25 hours from D-day.

*cue for very disturbing music in the background*

Disturbed
When I seek in the night, I'm swallowed by the darkness.
When I seek in the morning, I'm blinded by the morning light.

When I'm satisfied, I worry once again.
When I'm happy, I'll start crying.

You don't realize - The pain within my heart.
It hurts.

I can't find the answer, and neither can any help.
I just step forward.

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I'm anticipating the results with much anxiety in my heart. There are many things I keep to myself. I just pray that I'll get good reasonable results.

Uttered by Matt at 12:53 pm 0 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Quirks of Life

Well, many things come into my mind now, and I'm filled with much sadness as the O Levels results will be released in a matter of days. I'm really not looking forward to it, cause that would mean that I would have no more holidays. That aside, thoughts about further studies come into my mind, so now my brain is on the verge of exploding.

Tears
Nothing is going the way it should go,
I feel the tears swelling in my eyes.

All this anxiety and nervousness is sending my mind into a disorder:
Just like a little boy hugging his knees in the midst of tears.

Shivering and in tears, I repress all my regret;
I cried all night, but now it seems dawn is breaking...

I'll keep my secrets all locked away in my heart
Until my dreams come true, then shall I tell the world...

I surrendered myself to a dismal emptiness -
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't quite reach the standard set...
__________________

How will my story end? Will I be able to reach the standard? All will be made known in but a few days...

Uttered by Matt at 8:45 pm 0 comments  

Labels: Acting Poetic, Quirks of Life